when GRACE comes in, Guilt moves OUT.

I Choose Love…No occasion justifies hatred; no injustice warrants bitterness. I choose love. Today I will love God and what God loves.

I Choose Joy… 
I will invite my God to be the God of circumstance. I will refuse the temptation to be cynical. I will refuse to see people as anything less than human beings, created by God. I will refuse to see any problem as anything less than an opportunity to see God.

I Choose Peace… 
I will live forgiven. I will forgive so I may live.

I Choose Patience… 
I will overlook the inconveniences of the world. Instead of cursing the one who takes my place, I’ll invite him to do so, Rather complain that the wait is to long, I will thank God for a moment to pray. Instead of clenching my fist at new assignments, I will face them with joy and courage.

I Choose Kindness… 
I will be kind to the poor, for they are alone. Kind to the rich, for they are afraid. And kind to the unkind, for that is how God has treated me.

I Choose Goodness…
I will go without a dollar before I take a dishonest one. I will be overlooked before I will boast. I will confess before I accuse. I choose goodness

I Choose Faithfulness… 
Today I will keep my promises. My debtors will not regret their trust. My friends will not question my word. And my family will not question my love.

I Choose Gentleness… 
Nothing is won by force. I choose to be gentle. If I raise my voice may it only be in praise. If I clench my fist, may it only be in prayer. If I make a demand, may it be only of myself.

I Choose Self-Control… 
I refuse to let what will rot, rule the eternal. I choose self-control. I will be drunk only by joy. I will be impassioned only by my faith. I will be influenced only by God. I will be taught only by Christ. I choose self-control.

Love, Joy, Peace, Patience, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness, Gentleness, and Self-Control. To these I commit my day. If I succeed, I will give thanks. If I fail, I will seek His grace. And then when this day is done I will place my head on my pillow and rest. 

Excerpt From Max Lucado

I found this on http://godsgracefulness.com/?p=3257

very comforting :)

God bless!

Walk On The Water.

HEY people. :)
here I come with a song that I just knew apparently today :)
I got it from someone's blog, I do not know her but her blog is really good and inspires me a lot and I suppose she is a singer/musician :) cause she travels a lot, it was told inside her blog. :)


anyway, yes. a song from Britt Nicole, I didn't know this singer untill today apparenlty right now and I just got into the song and especially the lyrics.
Oh, fellow. go and listen to it :)
It blesses me a lot. just want to share with you guys!
no matter what happen, don't quit , guys  :) keep going! HE never fails nor leaves you alone!


*TO LISTEN TO THE SONG: Click the Tittle of this Post; it will lead you to Youtube :)*


Much love. :)
God Bless!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F4ptPEm8gjE

Your Love is Everything. (1) A month of LOVE.

HELLO pemirsa pemirsiiii... apa khaabaaaar, rasanya udah lama banget gue ngga ngeblog. hehe (:

*betewe setiap kali kalo mau ngeblog, gue ngga berani banget de ngeliat balik post yang kemarin2. nggatau kenapa. trolololol*

anyway, hari ini gue mau share tentang LOVE!!! 

Akakakakka. baiklah, walaupun memang kadang gue orang nya lebay buangets, tapi bukan kok, bukan mau ngomong soal galau menggalau karena Valentine ini ngga ada "pacar", "gebetan" atau ngga ada yang kasi coklat ama bunga. HAHAHA! sepertinya hal-hal yang jelas sekali akan ditangisi sudah aku mensyen *aduh maaf para jomblo-ers*

but HOLD ON, here's the good news for you and I who are SINGLE-ERS. IT IS NOT THE WORST POSITION TO BE SINGLE IN VALENTINE'S DAY.

Simaaak.

 Jadi begini, tepatnya hari selasa ditengah hari sekolah, gue terima SMS dari salah satu Worship Leader di gereja gue, Collin. Hampir aja gue lupa kalo doi ngga SMS bahwa gue hari Sabtu (yang merupakan hari ini) on duty, support singer. dan ketika gue buka SMS dia, ya biasa aja laaaah, karena dia cuma bilang "Hey Stevi, you ar eon duty this week. please check your email. thank you" .. Nah, pas buka email nya yang agak gimanaaa gituh. *soalnya gue buka emailnya pas di LAB COMP sekolah, HAHA pas pelajaran ICT hari Kamis* soh, gue kaget bangeeeet waktu di email dia bilang "Stevi will sing the Verse 1 and 2 for Be With You song..." gueee KAGET! kenapaa?! karena itu key nya TINGGI BANGETS! haa!! ya, tentu saja gue yang kata keluarga gue adalah "jago kandang" kalo urusan nyanyi, agak nerves-nerves gimana gituh, karena ya bayangin! itu tuh worship song! lagu terakhir mameeen! nyanyi di depan well ngga banyak orang BUT STILL kagok lah. dan kalo aja gue nyanyi salah, key nya ek ok, gue bisa jamin semua mata yang merem pun akan terbuka dengan sangat tidak enak dipandang. *YA AMPUN GUE KOK NGERASA BAHASA INDONESIA GUE KACAU BALAU GALAU BEGINI YAK* 

anyway, bukan itu inti nya, inti nya adalah, ketika gue cek lagi email itu, ternyata ada LAGU BARU yang bakal music team nyanyiin. ya tentu saja harus didengar secara saksama, itukan lagu baru, helloww~ 

Nah, kamis. malam nya, gue puuuusinggggg buangets, karena itu tuh tugas ICT yang nonsense banget menurut gue. astagah. facepalm. susah banget nya yaowooh. -___- akhir nya gue minjem komputer sepupu gue (tuh kan gue komputer ajah minjem. hiks.), gue berserah kepada jawaban internet. ketika gue lagi browse research gitu, gue nemuin sih beberapa jawaban tapi ngga nyambungg banget, jadi gue bener-bener pusing. akhirnya gue keinget sesuatu, buka email. setelah gue buka email gue teringat sesuatu, LAGU BARU ITU.

Nah, kebetulan judulnya Your Love is Everything dinyanyikan oleh Jesus's Culture/ Chirs Quilala. dan it attracts me a lot, of course then i decided oh well i HAD to open and listen to it, otherwise..

and yeah, i opened it on Youtube, and continue to do my ICT work. when the music started to flow, i thought, hmm the music is nice.. then when it reached the verse "When I am Dry and THRISTY Lord, when I am CRYING OUT FOR MORE. I know i can TRUST IN YOUR LOVE.."

oh, tentu saja setelah mendengar lirik itu, my heart was touched. and i was doing my homework back then, and when i heard those words, DRY, THRISTY, CRYING OUT FOR MORE, well tell me, who doesn't feel that way? everyone at least ever does feel that way too. I was so frustrated back then, not just because of my studies but also some friendships stuff lah, and yeah, i had to admit that i was thirsty and DRY. but then, when i heard "... I know i can trust in Your Love.." oh maaan, i tell you. i was so touched until i cry and i stopped my work. and listen to it.

TURST. TRUST in HIM alone! why is i sometimes it's just so hard for us, HUMAN to surrender all to Him and we are still working on it, do give our BEST and He will do the rest. why is it sometimes for us sooooo hard to TRUST to Him, when we lift up our prayers, but yet we still worry about things that's happening around us. i tell you what, here's the verse always reminded me. "But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. -Matthew 6:33 NIV"
it is already written in the BIBLE. we shall seek Him first then all these things, our livelihood things and more things will be given to us as well! we shall not worry!! Our God never leaves us alone! 
When we trust, we trust wholeheartedly and fully.  

"When I am dry and thirsty Lord,
And I'm crying out for more,
I know I can trust in your love.
In the darkness in the night
When I'm starving for the light
I know I can trust in Your love

You keep no records of my sin,
and you don't remember all my shame....."

YOU KEEP NO RECORD OF MY  SIN, YOU DON'T REMEMBER ALL MY SHAME.

dibagian itulah dimana gue nangis tersedu-sedu, *berlebih* *hapus bersedu-sedu* bukan lebay tapi gue tiba-tiba aja ngerasakan, yes stevi, Tuhan itu ngga pernahhh inget-inget dosa yang pernah elu buat, kenapa lu kadang harus malu sama diri lu sendiri, kenapa kadang lu harus keinget dengan dosa-dosa yang pernah lu buat sedangkan Tuhan yang Maafin aje kaga tuh inget-inget...

ya, dan gue super galau banget waktu itu. dan akhirnya gue berdoa..

"Tuhan maafkan aku karena ternyata selama ini aku udah sering banget inget2 dosa yang udah pernah aku lakuin. malah kadang aku bahkan buat ksalahan yang sama, Tuhan makasih banget atas kasih cinta Mu selama ini. semua ini anugerah bagimu.." dan jujur aja gue lupa gue doa apa aja tapi ya sekilas begitu.

dan gue juga yakin, diantara kita semua, pasti kita pernah ngerasa malu akan dosa-dosa yang pernah kita perbuat, apapun itu. ingat ya, dosa itu sama angka "berat" nya dimata Tuhan, ngga ada yang kecil, sedang atau besar, semua sama. namun kita patut bersyukur karna kasih cinta Tuhan sudah membebaskan kita dari dosa-dosa tersebut. Bukankah kita juga sudah di beri tau bahwa kita tidak tinggal di masa lalu kita namun kita tinggal di masa sekarang dan untuk masa depan kita?  never look back.

His love has set us FREE, what would we want to ask for again? 

itu adalah renungan yang bagi gue adalah renungan untuk diri gue,  renungan dari lirik pre-chorus tersebut...

sebenar nya masih banyak lagi di selantun, sebuah lagu tersebut yang gue pelajari, gue renungi. apalagi setelah gereja tadi :) 

dan sharing gue tentang LOVE kayaknya ngga kesampaen disini, besok yaaaah!!! :D *maap sekarang harus kabur dulu, si kasur sih sudah menunggu LOL. kan kata Tuhan, kita harus menjaga kesehatan jasmani dan rohani kita. maka dari itu kawans, jaga diri baik-baik yah.*

 i will leave the rest till  tomorrow :) 

i will blog again about this tomorrow :) semoga kalian stay tune, siapapun yang sudah berkenan membaca blog gue..... kalian benar-benar dahsyatttt!!!

"Akan tetapi Allah menunjukkan kasih-Nya kepada kita, oleh karena KRISTUS telah mati untuk kita, ketika kita masih berdosa. -Roma 5:8"

(: God Bless you all. <3

 see you tomorrow on my blog again!

Teman Sejati

HAIIIII GUYS!


Astaga sudah berapa lama kita tidak berjumpa bahkan berjabat tangan??? hahhaa.. lebay ya gue.. anyway, apa kaabaar.. sudah lamaaa bangets gue ngga updet updet blog gue, hahaha beberapa yg mangkir pasti bosen deh gini-gini ajaaa... hahaha gue minta maap deh, sibuk banget seh sama sekolahan, belajar, maklum gue kan aanak bapak emak gue, eh maksud nya anak teladan. *hoek* hahaha.


Aniwei betewe onthewei to bus way, gue hari ini lagi menyempatkan diri gue untuk mampir dan dengan ala kadarnya melimpahkan apa yg ada di otak gue di tulisan blog ini.. hahaha XD


Hari ini gue bakal ngomongin soal Teman Sejati, kenapa? ngga tau. karena gue mau aja, ga suka? *hehhe akting, becanda kok* :p mari kita simak.


Nah begini, beberapa minggu ini, gue di gumuli oleh pertanyaan2 yang ngga bisa gue jawab, pasti nya cuman Tuhan yang bisa jawab. gue sering bertanya2 kepada Tuhan, Tuhan kenapa sih hidup aku dari kecil Engkau kasih masalah sama teman-teman terus? ada sih teman yg baik, dan deket, tapi sekarang kenapa malah mereka jadi jauh? teman2 dekat SD ku juga sekarang udah bubar, yg SMP juga udah malah berubah.. Kenapa ya Tuhan? dan sampai sekarang kok aku tetap aja dapat cobaan dari Engkau melewati teman-teman ku yang kadang kala itu nyebelin dan bikin aku nyesek? apa ada Tuhan teman sejati di dunia ini...? 


Gue yakin, walaupun ngga semua orang yang baca ini pernah atau sedang mengalami hal ini pasti ada satu atau dua orang yang pernah. Jadi, gue sering lupa akan hal2 yang telah Tuhan ajarkan kepada gue karena gue mikir terlalu jauh. sampai kemarin gue doa sama Tuhan dan had my quite time with Him *after a long long time I didn't manage to do it*, dan disaat gue mulai doa, gue mulai merasakan Roh Kudus itu ada diruangan gue, akhir nya gue diam dulu karena konon katanya menyembah Tuhan itu diawali dengan kesunyian karna memberikan waktu untuk Tuhan bicara kepada kita. dan akhir nya gue mulai berdoa, gue berdoa yang bahkan diri gue ga percaya, gue bilang begini.. "Tuhan.. maafkan hamba Mu ini karena sering kali aku cemburu dan iri melihat teman-teman ku......" and it went on and on... Gue kaget, otomatis gue nangis dan gue sadar bahwa selama ini gue udah cemburu dan iri, dan gue tauuu Jealousy drives me into making sin, seperti menjudge orang lain..


Akhir nya sampai disuatu titik dimana gue ngomong sama Tuhan soal Teman sejati, Tuhan kenapa sih Engkau berikan aku masalah-masalah yang tiada henti nya terhadap teman2 hamba? dan Tuhan, aku heran deeh, kok sampe sekarang aku belum dapet yah Tuhan teman-teman sejati, teman2 yang benar2 penyanyang dan perhatian sama aku? seperti teman2 Vania ituloh Tuhan, mereka sayang banget sama Vania. kok aku rasanya ga punya teman sebaik punya dia yaaaa??... (anyway Vania adalah teman dekat sedari gue TK. sayangnya sekrang dia di Jakarta namun dia sudah didalam pemberkatan Tuhan yang Luar biasa! dia calon pastor loh! :D dia cantik, dia juga modeeeeel. hahahaha bangga aku sama diaaaa) dan gue bertanya ituuu deeehh ituu... dan pada suatu titik tiba2 gue ngeh, dan seperti ada yang ngomong "Loh, Gue kan Teman Sejati lo?..." dan gue pun sadar sesadar sadar nya.. bahwa teman sejati gue itu TUHAN! YESUS! He is the only One!!


Setelah itu gue BBM si vania, ceritalah sama dia.. soal gue merasa ga da teman yang sejati gitu.. Vania balesss "aww.. lu kan ada gue" :')
Siang nya gue geram banget, karna gue mendapat masalah dengan teman korea gue!!!! *sigh* seperti nya ga habis2 ini perkara, gerutu gue.. ngga, itu cuman masalah begini, mereka ajakin keluar jalan2 hari sabtu, gue bilang oke kalo gue ada transportasi gue bisa pergi tapi kalo ga ada yang bisa antar gue, gue ngga bisa ya... nah pada siang nya, gue sadar ngga ada yang bisa antar gue ke Mall itu, karnaa entahlah semua nya sibuk dan pura2 tidak mau keluar? akhir nya gue sms temen gue berinisial A, hey i am sorry i dont think i can make it, i dont have any transport.." trus dia balas "aah, ask your cousin or take taxy lah~!" yah gue mana bisa maksa sepupu gue buat nganterin gue, HAHAA rumah gue dan Mall itu jauh banget dari ujung ke ujung. terus gue balas "noo, i am sorry i cant force him right.." trus dia balas begini "oh so you are not coming? fine then from now on let's not make any appointment.." ASTAGA. gue sampe diem ngga berkutik ketika gue baca itu. maygat, SADIS. segitu nya, gue otomatis ngerasa ngga enak dan minta maaf sama dia.. akhir nya ego gue berkata "loh teman macam apa dia? kenapa dia ngga ngertiin gue? kenapa dia ngga ngertiin poisisi gue yang bener2 ga bisa pergi bukan nya ga mau. dan kenapa dia bocah banget sihhhh??!!!"  pokok nya begitu2 lah, sampe2 gue post di BBM. huh.. akhir nya gue smsin yang satu nya lagi berinisial M, dia bilang "it's ok.. i understand... :)" terus gue telponin dia menjelaskan dan gue juga menyampaikan apa yang si A katain ke gue, dan dia cuma bilang yaudah jangan terlalu di pikirkan.. akhir nya M sms gue bilang gini "Hey, it's okay. it's not your fault. i will talk to her later, and it's ok you know. she's still young, and the older ones should understand" HAHAHA kalimat terakhir itu nampar gue banget right in the face.. dan akhir nya gue sadar, gue harus let go egoisme dan emosi gue yang memuncak, akhir nya gue doa ama Tuhan dan minta ampun... dan guess what sore nya seppu gue ajakin nonton di Mall itu, otomatis gue ikut, apalagi tau bahwa teman2 gue masih ada disana. singkat cerita akhir nya gue ketemu mereka berdua dan seperti nya A tidak marah padaku, karena dia ketawa2 dan bahkan jingkrak2 melihatku berada disana. LOL.. 


betewe, seperti tidak puas akan jawaban dari Tuhan, gue sempet mikir, iya Tuhan emang teman sejati gue dong, itu kan pasti, tapi Tuhan itu spiritual, gimana kalo untuk manusia? tentu dong Tuhan akan mengirimkan kita setidak nya satu teman atau sahabat yang sejati.. 
Sampai akhir nya tepatnya kemarin gue BBMan sama salah satu sahabat Vania, yang kebetulan cowok, namanya eerrr sebutin kaga? Garry. yaudah deh terlanjur, maapin gue ger. lol
gue lupa bagaimana gue bisa bicara dan membahas soal teman sejati sama doi, tapi waktu doi tanya begini : "emang teman sejati seperti apa yang lo mau stev? =D"  ehehehe jujur aja gue stunned. hahahhaa gatau mau jawab apaaaa, dan akhir nya dengan bodoh nya gue jujur begini "Errr.. teman yang seperti teman2 Vaniaaaa ger, dia punya teman dan sahabat2 baik seperti lo dan yang lain yang begitu memperdulikan nyaa.. gue kadang cemburu lohhh dia punya teman sebaik kaliaaan..." hehehe gue aja sampe sekarang ngga percaya gue telah berkata seperti itu kepada Garry. ahahhaha dan garry balas begini "Jangan hidup di bawah banyang2 orang lain bung, yang ada anda akan muak sendiri nya.. dan ingat, pasti ada juga sesuatu yang lo punya tapi orang lain ga punya.." HEHE gue kaget dan gue merasa berdosa karena kenapa gue ngga bersyukur ajaa?  gue cuman bisa jawab "eh iya ya..." dia bales "iya, dan buktinya lo tau teman2 nya Vania, berarti teman Vania teman lu juga stev..."


Yaudah gitu kan... trus tadi sekitar beberapa jam yang lalu,  si Garry bbm gue dan salah satu sahbat Vania juga, dengan isi yang sama, kayak nya ga perlu gue sebutin karna itu panggilan Vania buat gue, -.- cute gitu sih tapi itu berdasarkan fakta dan gue agak malu ngatain nya AHAHAHAHA!!!
anyway busway, gue yang rada :uuugggghhhh -.-; pas ngebaca BBM mereka, akhir nya gue tau itu kerjaan Vania karna cuman Vania yang tau LOL..  akhir nya gue rada bete gitu, tapi akhir nya gue slow juga. dan tiba2 Garry bilang gini "Temen mu itu emang baik sama lo, dia punya panggilan khusus buat lo.." LOL gue yang kayak, EEEHHH??? tapi bener juga. gue kadang heran ma ni lelaki, kok bisa ya dia mengubah segala sutuasi menjadi lebih baik, dia benar2 dulpikat nya si Vania yang berbentuk lelaki. *eer?* anyway, ya dia bilang begitu, ya gue iya sadar juga iya ya. itu wanita hebat banget. sampe2 nama panggilan se unyu itu. LOL . dan pada suatu titik dia tanya "Lu kenal Vania udah berapa lama stev?" woooooh gue jawab dong, udah sejak TK bro, hahaha...." dan begitu dan cerita2. lol.  dan gue bilaaang "I miss herrr..." terus Garry balas "hahahaha oke, dan you are seeking your real friend: dia lah salah satu nya stev" HUEEEHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH gue shock. karena gatau kenapa dengan bodoh nya gue baru sadar????!!!! Bahwa Tuhan udah kasih gue teman sejati yang di depan mata gue, lebay sih karena si Vania kan di Jakarta gue di Malaysia, tapi seengga nya kami udah deket bangeeeeeet doooongsss yaaa!! jadi, why am I looking at the other island while i have one given island by God in front of my eyesss?????? dan Garry bilang gini " Kenal lamaaa... dan penilaian dia buat lo "baik". harusnya kenal lama-makin tau jeleknya- makin "gak baik" nilainya. Dikit teman kayak gitu.." YESS, i totaly AGREE with you BRO, semoga lu baca ini paling ngga nama lu nampang di blog gue, biar jadi terkenal AHHAHAHA *JK*


Nah, dari situlah gue sadar.. bahwa, kadang kita meminta kepada Tuhan.. dan kita seringkali tidak melihat disekeliling kita, bahwa sebenarnya Tuhan sudah menyediakan apa yang kita butuhkan, hanya saja kita tidak dapat melihat nya, karena kita TERLALU SIBUK melihat barang2 yang di ujunnngggg sana, padahal didepan mata kiri kanan juga udah di siapin ama si Daddy itu.... 
Nah, makanyaaa *gue mau ngomong apa ya*.. hehee


ya geitulaaah... keep seeking God ya guys, seperti gue.. gue lagi dalam tahap mau mantepin hati gue buat doa puasa!! AHHAHAHAHA semoga kali ini berjalan lancar didalam nama Tuhan Yesus! ga kayak yang lalu2 , gue malah BATAL! hahahaha


yaudah deeeh, thankies guys udah mau sempetin baca blog gue yang semeraut ini.. semoga menjadi berkat. hehe :)


Amsal 13:20 Siapa bergaul dengan orang bijak menjadi bijak, tetapi siapa berteman dengan orang bebal menjadi malang.


Amsal 17:17 Seorang sahabat menaruh kasih setiap waktu, dan menjadi seorang saudara dalam kesukaran.


Amsal 22:24 Jangan berteman dengan orang yang lekas gusar, jangan bergaul dengan seorang pemarah,
25 supaya engkau jangan menjadi biasa dengan tingkah lakunya dan memasang jerat bagi dirimu sendiri.


God Bless! :)


Loveeeesss from Me! :)

"No Matter what Happens, don't betray God.."

Hey folks! :) it's been quiet a while I didn't exist in my Blog.. How are you folks? doing great? ;)

Well, there's so much things I want to share.. :)
after passing last months, lots of things happened, even is happening still..




Let's see.. it's November now.. Praise Lord for that.. :)
Uhm, last month.. October..
I've been through a difficult times of my life..
Well, at that moment I was in pain, inside.. I was hurt.
Couldn't describe it in words, how did it feel..
that time I was like faarrr away from God... I was kinda like blaming God, like why did this happen to me? why didn't He protect me? He said He love me, but WHY?


yes. WHY.. It was my first question..
I was struggling with my exams when it happened..
Then I told God, "why did You do this to me? when I really have my exam? You do this to me, God?"
I was selfish.. 
Then I decided to ask suggestions from a sister that i know..
She said to me, "vi.. we never know what God's plans for our lives.. He knows the best for us.. This is His trail for you.. He wants you to be grow more in Him and have stronger faith in Him... Trust Him, read His words more, and listen to Him.." then she asked me this question ;
"Vi.. after what happened, do you still believe in Christ?" ..
that time i was crying, i was in pain.. not the hurt pain anymore, I realized how selfish i was..
i mean, I was blaming me for things that happened to me, which I didn't know what was God's purpose for that..
I cried and cried.. I asked her, "Sis.. do you think God will forgive me?"
She said "of course she will dear.. draw closer to Him.. He'll show you the way of light.."


after everything happened, I just did my exams with all my best. thou sometimes things just got into my head and i thought about it too much..
I was too worried about my exams.. I was worried that I actually would failed.
I prayed before I did the exams. I said to Him that please bless this paper, I surrendered all to Him and no matter happens is all by His grace.
I was very worried about my add math especially, math and Physics.. and actually other subjects.. because I knew that I couldn't  do or even get A* or A like all my friends.. I was in FEAR. FEAR of LOSS.. I didn't get much times study for my add math, I was too nervous therefore whatever I studied couldn't go into my head, my brain.. I was too scared.. scared of FALL. failing.
After the short of studying times that we student had because our exam's date was pushed forward because of certain thing, 2 weeks has gone.. finally we finished our exams. 


the next week (which is this week) we got our papers back.. I wasn't hope that much, (well yeah) .. I praise God, that I actually got better exam result than last semester. they weren't as bad as I thought. well except for my Math and Add Math and Physics. I asked my teachers, they both said I've done well, really well even this is better than last semester.
I was not satisfy, but I thank God for that. for all my subjects overall I really am thankful to God.
I learnt that actually when we surrender all we have to God, He will do the remaining.. He will do the rest.. We need no worry too much..


God is doing a really great planning in my life.. even though I don't know what is it. but now I want to fix my eyes and heart just to Him.. I want to really commit to Him, and I want to see the other miracles that coming towards my life. and my family <3


look, I am having problem with my friends. some misunderstanding, it hurts me a lot when I know about this. maybe i have done wrong things.. but i have never been told..
Friendship problems always happen to me, I don't know why.. 
God seems has His own planning for me, maybe He wants me to know more about friends, so I am facing these kind of problems..
thou it's hurts, A LOT.. but i am gonna face it, it's a grace.
Grace. yeah, If i am baptized one day I want my name to be Grace. I am a Grace, by God.


My friend told me, he said. God wants me to get through this because He wants me to be more stronger, and more matured. I just want these misunderstandings to be Over.. I am doing my best to solve this..


Thank You God, for giving me chances to learn from my own LIFE. from experience that You gave to me.. :)


Check Jayesslee concert in City Harvest Church guys. It's awesome. the testimony life that they shared. wow. I am inspired by them :)
They said .. "no matter what happens, do not betray God.." :)


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6u7Ps5SpzXA&feature=related

thank you for reading my blog! :)

May God Bless you all.. Keep REJOICE for the Lord :)
He always knows what's best for us even in the MOST BITTER stages our lives in. :)
Be strong :)

<3 Jesus loves all of us.
"when life is hard, lift you head up a little bit. because there's when God is closest to you.. " :')

When you miss your primary moments..

Gue tiba2 kepikiran deh sama masa2 SD..
dimana aku, novita, steviani setiap pagi berjalan kaki ke sekolah.
kantor pol-lantas yang sering kami lewati,
polisi-polisi yang sering membantu kami menyebrang jalan,
motor-motor berlalu lalang.


ada juga dimana kami telat pergi sekolah..
disaat dimana kami dihukum,
terlambat pada hari senin untuk Upacara..
di tegur oleh guru karena buat salah..


dimana kami sering juga ditugaskan untuk menjadi bagian pengurus upacara..
dimana aku sering menjadi pembawa acara,
pembaca undang-undang,
pemberi naskah pancasila (ah Pak Ngatiman, rindurindu :(. 
pembaca doa..


dimana kami biasa nya menghempaskan kemalasan kami..
kantin bang abas, *aduh sotonya*
warung bubur bude :( kangeenn,
nasi kuning mak uli.. 
sosis goreng nya mamang bisu (maaf memang panggilan nya)
kantin kak erni..
tempe goreng,
banyaaaakkkkkk..


dimana aku bertemu teman-teman yang luar biasa..
di kelas 1 A, 2 B, 3 D, 4 D, 5 B, 6 B... (jangan heran kenapa aku masih ingat :')
ada Cyntia, Fuji, Nita, Lerin..
mereka berempat merupakan dulu nya teman yang begitttuuuu dekat sama aku,
tapi seiring masa SMP kami jarang berbicara namun ada-lah kadang..
kami biasa disebut 5 serangkai, ya karena emang ga pernah lepas dari satu sama lain..
Cyntia dulu nya cewek lugu namun baik..
sekarang sudah dewasa, bijaksana, rajin lagi.. jadi bangga sama dia :)
dimana kami juga sering ada pertengkaran, salah paham sajalah..


ntah lah. aku begitu rindu dengan mereka semua..
hahahaha :D
kasian betul aku, tiap kali nge-blog isi nya tentang kangen teman2 HAHAHA/
tanda nya aku ngga pernah lupa sama mereka yaaa..
hayoloh dlu siapa yang janji jalan lupa2an?hhahaha :)


jaga diri ya kaliaaan!!! kangeeeeennnn <3

Sidney Mohede Music celebration concert.

Friday, 29th July 2011.


that day was beautiful day, i thought it'd be just another last Friday for July 2011.
When I got back home from school, I saw my cousin was watching movie..
then I reminded that that day had Sidney Mohede concert!


Let me introduce you to SIdney.
he's an incredible guy, a great worship leader, the most humble man I've ever met, he always bring Jesus to his life, whatever the situation is, everything is come from Jesus.
I am sure y'all know True worshiper right? or last time he was in Giving My Best (GMB) .
If you don't know, you better check it out.
hahaha..
He's my inspire.. whn he leads a worship on stage, you can feel the atmosphere that he gives. you can feel the presence of God is there.
anyway, as Indonesian, I am very proud of him. :) 


so, that firday night. we decided to go, we bought the tickets in the place, the tickets weren't sold all, but thanks God there were still lots of people! :)
We attended the worship night, i was like! OH MY GOD. FINALLY. I NOW STANDING HERE TO NIGHT, SIDNEY'S CONCERT! NOW I CAN FEEL THE REAL ATMOSPHERE WHEN HE LEADS WORSHIP, NOT IN YOUTUBE ANYMORE!!!


It was just WOOW!!!!
then.. that night was until 10 plus.. we finished,, Sidney went to backstage. 
I actually went to backstage but used other way, well I was really WANT to take picture with him! THHEEEE.. 50 bucks for 1 night! for SIDNEY! 
I was really concern to take pictures with him!
so, I tweeted him!!!!
guess what?
He replied me!!!!
replied, I sent, replied, sent, replied, sent..
still couldn't meet him, we decided to go supper and not going to meet him.
but i forced well yeah, my cousin to go.. so she said, ok we go.
so we went to 101 ! 
I was shaking (i know kinda lame but yeah) , i mean. he's my inspire,. and that day i was going to meet him! in REAL!


so, with my other cousin help to force me to go call Sidney, I went..
I was like..
"Kak.. " he turned and.
"Stev. ya? " :')
the best moment i won't forget,. LOL.


then we talked for awhile only cos he needed to go to car.. 


Anyway, I won't forget him. :) 
He inspires me a lot. in my spiritual life with God. through his songs that he wrote I've been fall in love with those. :) 
the songs just describe truly what we feel to our God, Jesus Christ. :)


Thank you Sidney Mohede.
Hope to see you on other time!! :) 
come over to Kuching, even my hometown Ngabang!! hahahaha XD


God bless guys!!!


SHINE LIKE STARS. SIDNEY's new ALBUM. A HEART FOR YOU.